“Big” is Killing Me (Episodes 9-10)
Big leaves me so emotionally drained and confused. At the base of my confused state, there lies a complete love of Gong Yoo. He has me in shackles every moment he is on screen. On top of that wonderful foundation, there is a layer of love for the small, quiet moments in this drama. But above all this love there is a thick block of frustration that unfortunately can be written out as a list. Here it is.
1) I had this feeling I couldn’t shake off that the big mystery about the relationship between Yoon Jae and Kyung Joon wasn’t going to be that shocking. But the drama was trying to make believe that it was.
2) Therefore the mystery was being drawn out when it was so obvious what the answer was. So those moments of slow revelation with the mother and Hee Jin were annoying me. And what is point of Se Young? She feels superfluous to the story…
3) As do most of the side characters. I know they are there to provide comedy but their stories aren’t even funny and aren’t built in to the larger story.
4) And Mari. She’s delusional and it’s starting to get on my nerves.
5) Finally, now that we know for sure how Da Ran feels, I can’t stand these misunderstandings between Da Ran and Kyung Jae, especially because it seems Kyung Joon’s days as Kyung Jae are numbered. They have enough problems without these misunderstandings.
Gong Yoo is hitting it out the park as Kyung Jae, a nineteen year-old boy stuck in a thirty-one year-old’s body. His face shows the vulnerability, hurt, and innocence of Kyung Joon, especially when he is around Da Ran. This level of acting really enhances the writing and I can prepare myself for a real Kyung Joon and Da Ran romance when he returns to his original body. Gong Yoo is creating this aura of love that will stay around even the character of Kyung Joon even if Shin Won Ho returns as Kyung Joon. So I think I can happily board this ship now.
Kyung Jae running home to Da Ran to bring her food and alcohol from her parents. Happiness shines on his face as he runs and Da Ran is also happily waiting for him.
Kyung Jae thinking that Da Ran can’t forget Yoon Jae when he sees Da Ran bring home the box of Yoon Jae souvenirs. They argue and Kyung Jae breaks Yoon Jae’s Walkman. Kyung Jae breaks my heart when he says, “I need to draw the line and keep my distance so I don’t get confused. I’m not the one that is really becoming part of your family.”
I think this is really the first time that Da Ran saw Kyung Jae as Kyung Joon and her heart skipped a beat for the young boy. She isn’t happy because Kyung Joon fixed Yoon Jae’s Walkman but because he came to her.
What I love about the Hong Sisters’ writing is the way they portray love in the smallest, most innocent gestures. Love is beautifully innocent in their eyes, isn’t it? So pure that it is almost childish. Da Ran wants Kyung Jae to eat the black beans in the rice. Kyung Jae refuses and Da Ran gets upset. She leaves and Kyung Jae forces himself to eat the black beans, downed with a cup of water.
This scene killed me. Da Ran running home to Kyung Jae, thinking that the souls might have been switched back to their rightful bodies. What really gets to me is how this parallels the scene in the first episode when Da Ran first found Kyung Jae in his small bed at his house. She called Kyung Joon’s name that time too but she was hoping it was Yoon Jae. When she realized that it was Kyung Joon in Yoon Jae’s body, she was disappointed. But in episode 10, she calls out Kyung Joon’s name hoping that it is still Kyung Joon. This time she is relieved that Kyung Joon is still here and also upset at realizing her true feelings about Kyung Joon. And Kyung Joon’s face when he says sorry that he is not Yoon Jae? Kills me.