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Letter of Love: From Young to Eun-soo

Josh Groban- “Awake”

Imja,

When I first brought you here to this land, I was barely alive. As a warrior, death was always a part of my life but it was also something I fought against. I had a country to fight for, a family to protect, and a love to cherish for the rest of my days. But after the king I risked my life to serve took away that family and love from me, death was no longer an enemy but a friend I was waiting for. Life merely became a march towards death and I scorned all those who struggled against the inevitable. I closed my eyes against life, unable, no…unwilling to see the bright daylight that reminded me I was still alive while everyone I loved wasn’t. So when I couldn’t keep my oath to you, and you in your anger dashed toward me, I welcomed the blade that promised to shut my eyes forever.

Imja. I am sorry. I’m sorry for bringing you here and tearing you from your life in your world- from your family, friends, and safe haven. I’m sorry that I couldn’t send you back as I promised and you had to face danger and bloodshed here in my chaotic world. But I couldn’t see you then, because death began to envelope me and I welcomed it, in my despair, with open arms. I descended deeper into the frozen depths of my heart and sought refuge in the silence and darkness that I had long waited for.

But you. You unearthly creature. Somehow, someway, your voice broke through my frozen heart and you breathed life into me. I felt your warm tear on my face and your quivering lips on my own. I felt your fear and earnestness reach out to me, begging me to come back, to stay by your side as I promised, to keep fighting for life.

The sun was blinding that day when I opened my eyes. It was like I was seeing light for the first time in a very long time. I was opening my eyes to a new world- a world that had you in it. Death still waited for me around every corner but you were now the sword I could cut it down with.

But in truth, I was just waking to another foolish dream- a dream that you will be here by my side forever. Imja, you don’t belong here in this world full of bloodshed, death haunting your dreams. You need to go back to your world where you can sleep peacefully once more.

Imja, from the moment I realized I needed you by my side, I had to prepare to say goodbye. Time that seemed so endless when I was asleep, now races by me. So with every precious moment I memorize your face. I memorize the way you smile, the way you cry, and even the little frown line between your eyes that appears when you are intently patching me up. I’m even memorizing every heavenly word that you use, even though I have no idea what they mean. I want to remember everything about you- the way your hair felt on my fingertips, the way your fingertips felt on my arm, the way your eyes looked up at me with trust and hope, and the way you waved goodbye, saying “Come back soon.”

I know it was foolish to bottle up that flower. It will turn to dust, just like any other trace of you left in this world when you leave. But memories will remain and so will the lessons you taught me. I will be left alone in this world once again but you will remain in my heart as a shelter from the battles I will face. The wind will continue to blow, carrying your fragrance in the air, and the rain will continue to fall, washing away the blood on my hands. I will carry on, wide awake, just like the way you live your life. In that way, I will remember you, every moment of my life.

Goodbye, Imja. I hope death never touches your hand again. I hope that nightmares never haunt your dreams. I hope you will continue to smile and laugh that boisterous laugh of yours. And I hope, selfishly, that you will remember me as I will remember you.

Imja, will I ever say these words to you?

I love you.

Choi Young

“Awake” by Josh Groban

A beautiful and blinding morning
The world outside begins to breathe
See the clouds arriving without warning
I need you here to shelter me

And I know that only time will tell us how
To carry on without each other

So keep me awake to memorize you
Give me more time to feel this way
We can’t stay like this forever
But I can have you next to me today

If I could make these moments endless
If I could stop the winds of change
If we just keep our eyes wide open
Then everything would stay the same

And I know that only time will tell me how
We’ll carry on without each other

So keep me awake for every moment
Give us more time to be this way
We can’t stay like this forever
But I can have you next to me today

Remember all the love we shared today

*Dedicated to Softy and everyone who shared their insights and love for this drama (150 comments for Episode 14!). Thanks for bringing so much life to the drama. You guys are my inspiration!

83 Comments Post a comment
  1. sam #

    OMG…!!!that letter..so touching and heartbreaking T_T…how can i watch a scene of our OTP when ES will already go back to her world with CY saying their goodbyes without bawling my eyes out..btw, it’s my first time posting here but a long time reader…hehe..thanks for all the recaps…

    September 30, 2012
    • joonni #

      *waves* 😀

      September 30, 2012
  2. bobsavero #

    OMG./ Jooni, youre so romantic, ,aaa, cant wait for tomorrow.

    #my heart already melt when i read your heading.

    September 30, 2012
    • joonni #

      This post kind of scared me at how romantic it sounded. But since I conceived of it as “inner thoughts” letter, I allowed myself that freedom. I wouldn’t have been able to bring out that romantic in me without my readers help so it’s all thanks to you guys.

      September 30, 2012
  3. Onichick #

    T_T

    I WILL GO DOWN WITH THIS SHIP!

    Ok, I declare a fandom-wide group hug.

    *hugs everyone*

    September 30, 2012
    • joonni #

      *bear hug*

      September 30, 2012
  4. dje #

    so beautifully written i’m crying my heart out…..

    September 30, 2012
  5. myblaze #

    it’s so beautiful
    thank you for writing this

    September 30, 2012
  6. Damn, you reduced me to tears … this is what I am trying so desperately to write in my new Faith fan fic … thank you for sharing .. this is beautiful and so spot on, the words of a scholar with the soul of a warrior and a heart of a lover.

    September 30, 2012
  7. Joy #

    Thx for tis love letter from CY. Melodrama fanfic. I luv it.

    September 30, 2012
  8. Dolly #

    Hugs everyone, 12 more episodes to go; can’t imagine when Faith ends, how shall I ‘Carry On’?

    September 30, 2012
  9. Classy #

    OMG!! Joonni, thats ..
    i am speechless, out of words and god i had tears in my eyes as i was reading it..
    Its like as if i could picture Choi Young in my head writing the letter to her..

    You are truly truly amazing, my god..
    Its a sad and yet poignant letter and i really hope they do something like this in a similar vein the drama too as his expression of his love..

    * Hugs and Kisses*…

    September 30, 2012
    • joonni #

      Kisses too? Aw, shucks. *blush*

      September 30, 2012
      • Classy #

        You totally deserve it.. catch it.
        ***FLYING KISS***
        [eee]

        September 30, 2012
  10. Swee #

    Dear Joonni, what a beautiful and heartfelt letter, you write beautifully and thank you for sharing it with us. I read it with tears in my eyes and OTP moments flashing in my mind. Love it , love it, love it…… Off to read it again… 😘

    September 30, 2012
  11. Nooooooo!!! Don’t say goodbye! Imja, will be here by your side forever !!!
    It has to be, Choi, it HAS to be. Little baby red-headed screechy warrior healers at their feet.

    There you go again making me cry again. I love how you have accounted for all the senses in his absorbing of Imja. I guess I need to go watch these episodes again again.

    September 30, 2012
  12. Tukata #

    oh ! my ! you say it all…thank you for sharing, it is truly beautiful… I personally watch episodes 13 & 14 over over over and over….still never enough 🙂

    September 30, 2012
  13. kyla #

    Such a beautiful writing, I had tears in my eyes after reading this wonderful piece.

    Thanks for sharing, you’re a really gifted person.

    September 30, 2012
  14. never2muchcoffee #

    Now I’m squalling…..

    September 30, 2012
  15. martha (@comix) #

    Thank you so much

    September 30, 2012
  16. raindrops1 #

    Thank you for creating and sharing such a beautifully written letter. Your an amazing writer. It’s awesome to see how much love there is for Faith, it makes following the show that much more enjoyable.

    *hugs*

    September 30, 2012
  17. wits #

    Hi Joonni, I have been pretty much a lurker in your blog. But this… THIS pierced my heart, right *here. My heart is bleeding, my eyes are crying, and I thank you for the beauty, the melody and the feelings they evoked. You are a gem. Since I discovered your site a few weeks back, I have been a regular visitor, slowly becoming a fan. I am NOW fully convinced and has become a total admirer / follower / disciple! I hope you will welcome me into your world.

    September 30, 2012
    • joonni #

      ❤ Aw, thanks. I welcome you with a bear hug! My friends tell me it's my specialty. 😀

      September 30, 2012
  18. Ainda #

    True love. There is so much of this feeling conveyed by these words so beautifuly woven together. Like Young had pouring through his eyes when gazing at Eun-Soo that night or when he slowly traced her shadowy features concealed by the thin wall.

    This letter says it all, with greatness and simplicity, just how he feels. For him LOVE IS. Period. In present tense. No need for adjectives.

    Thank you for being inspired and sharing this wonderful piece of… love. I had tears (of joy) caressing my cheeks after reading it. You are truly gifted.

    September 30, 2012
    • joonni #

      Young’s sparsity with words is nicely balanced with how straightforward he is and I struggled to portray that with this letter. So thank you so much for your compliments!

      September 30, 2012
  19. This letter.
    It is so devastating. And normally I simply lurk because too shy but this? This was one of the best most saddest birthday presents ever I will ever encounter, I feel.
    Just thank you. *Piles into the giant group hug and hides face* I love you all, extended family~

    September 30, 2012
    • Sunshine #

      Awww. Happy Birthday!!!

      * joins group hug*

      September 30, 2012
    • joonni #

      Happy birthday Nutella!!!!!!!! <3<3<3

      September 30, 2012
  20. Sunshine #

    Joonni- I’m not sure what inspired the letter- whether it was rewatching eps, or ruminating over the love story(that is sticking with us long after the eps end) but I’m so glad you painted such a beautiful, moving scene. (josh grobans voice and the lyrics were a lovely fit)

    Nary a dry eye in this forum after reading that fan fiction letter perfection. Well done sweet friend. Thanks for giving us something so beautiful to tie us over until tomorrow.

    Enjoy the rest of your weekend!

    September 30, 2012
    • joonni #

      It was you guys, Softy, and fangirls everywhere who saw so much love between this couple that inspired me. *huge group hug with this fandom*

      September 30, 2012
  21. lizetteanna #

    this letter is really awesome, it gives me goosebumps…

    September 30, 2012
  22. Maggie H.V. #

    I simply love it… thank you so much. It’s very touching, I must say I cried while reading but at the same time you made it sound honest, brave and lovely.

    September 30, 2012
    • joonni #

      I conceived of this letter as a inner thoughts kind of letter because while he doesn’t lie, Young is a warrior. So he is truthful and so are his actions, but I don’t think words like this would come out of his mouth. I had a hard time trying to balance the straighforwardness of his character and the poetry of love so I’m glad you liked it. 😀 That was exactly what I trying to do, be “honest, brave, and lovely” so thank you so much for seeing it that way.

      September 30, 2012
      • Maggie H.V. #

        You’re welcome, I read and re-read it and I can clearly imagine him writing this down to calm himself… and burning the paper later not to be caught again as he was with the flower. I love this kind of stories, with a strong male character capable of being in love. I think Lee Min Ho has grown up as an actor because all the emotions you wrote had been portrayed by him along the episodes… you were able to put into words what I have been seeing all these days.

        September 30, 2012
      • Cindylala #

        Joonni…

        Thank you to write this letter , I agree with you that still cannot picture that CY will write this kind of letter. But this kind of letter is every woman’s dream to get.

        I love this movie. And I love your blog…. Thank you so much….

        October 1, 2012
  23. RIS #

    Hello! It is my first time leaving comment here. Thank you for writing the recaps. They were all well written and i like your interpretation of choi young. This letter is beautifully written!!<3 it!

    September 30, 2012
  24. Veenas1979@gmail.com #

    So sad:( I almost cried read this letter..hoping CY and EH has a happy ending..

    September 30, 2012
  25. pam lee #

    Joonni, in all honesty, I just skimmed your fan fiction CY letter above because I can’t handle the heartache! Lol! I’ll come back to read later! *Joining-the-huge-Faith fan-hug-above!

    September 30, 2012
  26. Love, love. love this!!!!!!!!! ♡ I most definitely tweeting this!

    September 30, 2012
  27. Nevermind #

    Sigh… I can accept a sad and bitter-sweet ending of this drama based on your letter. Actually, it scares me more to think that the writer and director may force a happy ending but ruin its effect on the total story w/ a mushy and corny scenario.

    Gurl, you should start writing books soon! Since you soo love it, you might as well make a living out of it. Just like American movies (box-office hit or not) have the book versions, maybe you can make (expanded) book versions of well-loved Kdramas like Faith. (Seriously.) Thanks for sharing! Hugs!! 😉

    October 1, 2012
    • Sunshine #

      I second that.

      Start writing the kdrama versions we want for a living, Joonni! Gosh…I so wish I had found fanfic ending -Feast of the Gods (because the writer made it seem like if you do the wrong thing…um poison someone, and frame them…that you should be rewarded in the end) Baker King (the bad guy who cheats n his girl on their wedding night pretty much says that he only wanted her so baker king couldn’t have her, but somehow in the end that twisted up mess is supposed to be love?)and Fashion King…that ending that had me feeling down for days! I know he was cutthroat, but let to people who have had horrible lives have some measure of happiness!

      So yes, write away my dear! I will start the queue to puchase you fan fic. 🙂

      October 1, 2012
      • joonni #

        Thank you for your kind words, dearies.

        Sunshine, you just named three dramas I didn’t watch. LOL.

        October 1, 2012
  28. Namfa Saengthai #

    Thank you for sweet but sad letter. I love this couple sooooo muchhhhh and want every day is Monday for me and a lot of Thai fans to see the General and Doctor Yoo again. I want Faith every day!!!.

    October 1, 2012
  29. sun123 #

    OMG……
    so romantic. . . . .

    I’m wondering….
    this romance will cont’d???
    will Eun Soo reply???
    what will she say to Choi Young???

    Kisses for you . . . Joonni
    I await for new development… Thz

    October 1, 2012
  30. This was beyond beautiful. Thank you!

    October 1, 2012

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